Psalm 119:28

I weep with sorrow; encourage me with your word.

This Is Me

creative; a writer, a photographer, an actress, a singer, a producer? .. maybe someday .. . sensitive, passionate, tortured. an artist. a dreamer.

ambitious, determined, driven. adventurous.

political, a capitalist, opinionated.

anti-european.

spiritual. a fatalist.

patriotically british. a little american at heart. a linguist. a traveler.

paradoxical, contradictory, multi-faceted.

a student. taking the wrong program. at the wrong institution.

a businesswoman. a PR girl.

a daughter. a sister. a mom .. one day. the love of someone’s life?

a country girl in the city, sometimes. a city girl in the country, sometimes.

a superstar.

i believe that the things you are afraid of are the things that are the most worthwhile.

i like to challenge myself.

i believe in love and that there is good in everyone. except me.

i forgive too easily, but if you push me too far, it’s game over.

if i inspire just one person, i will die happy.

Thoughts, Mulling Around In My Head

There's a dad outside my window, looking after his baby, who is sitting a nice dark blue stroller, and playing with his toddler on the grass. She (the toddler) is wearing a cute pink coat and a little white hat.

I'm thinking about what you said. But I just can't see it. It's going round and round in my head, I just can't see you doing what that guy is doing.

Productivity

So, I kinda gave up on my book a week thing, which I feel very rubbish about. In eleven weeks, I have read three books and started one which I subsequently have given up on.

Weeks Four - Fifteen:

Mr Maybe - Jane Green

To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov

And I started and gave up on:
The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini

I'm sorry, I know I was supposed to love that book, but I really didn't get into it at all.
I will try and read it again sometime, but for now I want to focus on reading all the other books I have! I didn't bring so many back with me after Easter, because I already have so much stuff to be shipped back and my dad is already freaking out about it. I have maybe three boxes of books alone, including my huge German dictionary, so I only brought back a few of the ones I ordered from Amazon in January/February. But airports always have great offers on books, so I picked up a few on my way back. Two were on Buy One Get One Half Price, and one hasn't been released as paperback in regular bookstores yet, but it has at airports and I really don't want to wait a whole year for it, so I got it there. So I have loads to be cracking on with.

I also finally started my Year Abroad Essay this week. My lecturer suggested a title for me (he didn't like the one I came up with), but it was a bit dry I thought, so I spent literally weeks mulling over what I could use instead, then finally at like 3.30 a.m. one night, the best one came to me out of the blue. I was so happy, and finally felt like I could start to write, although I was planning to start anyway and then go back and change the title as and when genius struck, because I was starting to freak out about time running out (it has to be handed in June 7th).
So I finally started this week, and I now have a complete introduction! It has to be 3000 words in total, so I still have a lot to do, obviously, but now I at least feel like I am getting somewhere. I like that feeling!

Ok, I'm gonna go read my new book!!!

xxxx

One in a Million

"You're one in a million, you're once in a lifetime, you made me discover one of the stars above us."

I have that song stuck in my head. If you don't know it, it's called One in a Million by Bisson, and was used in the dance of the final pageant scene in Miss Congeniality (yes, that is the poster, just in case you have no idea what I am talking about). I love that song. It's cheesy Europop at it's best. But now it's stuck in my head, and starting to grate.

Actually, speaking of Miss Congeniality ... I recently read that Sandra Bullock was in New York on 9/11 and saw the whole thing, and immediately went to a hospital to volunteer help and spent the whole day emailing people on behalf of patients who wanted to let their families know they were safe. What a nice lady!

Sooo, my Americanness is coming along nicely! Haha. Just a quick explanation of why we use American English here, because I too expected it to be British English: we are organizing an international conference and the international English is American English (apparently). And also, I am working with people from Latin America and other places where they have learnt American English in school or wherever, and most people watch American TV shows and movies, so everything they say is pretty much American, or some bizarre mixture of British and American. And so many people have trouble understanding me when I speak British. Grr.

I figured though, Americans spell more logically ... take neighborhood for example. In British, there is a "u" between the "o" and the "r". WHY?!! It doesn't make any sense!! You don't need it!!

The weather here is awesome right now. It's pretty cold still, but the sky is a clear, deep blue and there are only tiny fluffy clouds dotted about, and we have the most spectactular view of the Austrian mountains from the office. I feel like I am on vacation whenever I look out the window! :o)

xxx